What I thought would be something completely different was familiar. You know how you think that something you don’t know is different, but in reality it isn’t? This was how I felt last Saturday night. It was the launch of Ciudad’s 5th album, Follow The Leader.
Every now and then I try to immerse myself into something I have never experienced before. In this attempt, I now believe that the more I try to pursue something totally different, the more I find myself connected to it because what I thought was different was actually familiar to me. This thought or idea was brought about by Ciudad’s music, which has now captured me entirely and, apparently, so was the jam-packed crowd that was present that night.
That night, I realized how truly wrong people are when they say that OPM is dead. I am now convinced that they are listening to the wrong kinds of music. Apparently, the best kinds are the ones that are honest, and that was Ciudad. Their music to me was honest, and maybe that’s why I cannot stop listening to them, especially to their song, There’s a Lonely Road to Sunday Night - hence the title of this blog post. Well, mostly because that song has grown a personal meaning in me. Then there’s their song You Know the Answer, Just Follow the Leader, which has triggered feelings of mine that I never thought could be put in a song. Well, mostly all their songs have that factor, at least to me.
That is the best part of music, for me. I think I speak on behalf of everybody out there when I say that the best kind of music is the one that says the things you can’t and expresses the feelings you cannot explain. Somehow, that thing that you think makes something different is what actually connects to you, you know? Someone out there is feeling something inexplicable as well, and somebody out there, is also lost, and looking for meaning in everything just like me - but isn’t everybody doing the same? We are all trying to be different when we all know that we have one denominator, that despite our wanting to be different, we are actually not, at all.
The thing is, their songs were beautifully painful, because it was thought-provoking and at the same time catchy. I kinda find it funny how both qualities were incorporated. But, what really struck me was a line from the first track of their album which is Due Dates: “don’t you know you’ll be fine?” Remember how I said that music can express the feelings you can’t? Well, in just six words, my whole life story has been told. Realizing this, I am now aware of my wanting to be different has become something that makes me just like everybody else. Because in reality, everyone just wants to be fine, and nobody knows that we WILL be fine. Even I don’t.
Different is what I go for when I am in doubt of where things are going for me. But just like everybody else out there, I need assurance, although there is no guarantee for it.
I just have to remember that I will be fine. I have to know it for myself.
I’ll be fine. Don’t you know you’ll be fine, too?
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